I once got this greeting card from my aunt, around 8 years back which had these words on it "It's not the number of years lived, it's how we live that counts", and although I was sensible enough even at that age to understand what it would mean, nodding my head "yes..so true" & being touched......
I practically experienced that later. Several such events that happened later proved this time and again, and the ones who helped in making my life more meaningful during these phases cannot be forgotten ever..& those words make so much more sense now looking back...
I experienced doing the same things and living in boredom & just wondering for years "ohh..what am I doing?" ... like living inside a shell and then I also experienced change ...exploring, interacting, learning, doing new things and realizing that there's more to life.. all that in just a year or so....
If I weigh both these phases I think I lived more in the shorter period. Well then age just
becomes a number, some people do so much in lesser time that they know more then those who live to grow old, living like a frog in the well...
It's easier said than done!! It's scary to realize that this phase again feels like the dead phase...like time is slipping through my hand and am not keeping pace with it, standing still, watching and letting days pass. Just adding to my age & work experience but in the real sense ...it's all so stagnant. I'm sure Mermy would agree on this...when you compare past couple of years vs. some years before that..isn't it?
I'm beginning to realize that while craving for a change in the monotonous life...we're actually getting so used to the monotony that it becomes an inertia which is quite hard to overcome.This state of inertia prevents us from initiating things we aspire to do, things that make life more meaningful and make us live more each day...
Sometimes I wish I could just go five years back and start over again to make it better then what these five years have turned out to be, but on the other hand, I feel, whatever has happened in these years have certainly made me better and given me some better opportunities to learn from experiences and from interesting n nice people whom I have as friends today, I might not realize that so much today but hoping that looking back some years later...I'd certainly feel that it was all important...
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hey snow
that's so true.. and i agree a 100%.. hmmm.. i hope we can look back at all this - including this blog - when we get really old & smile & say - "ok, it wasn't that bad.. it was worth it!!" :-)
I’m not sure I know or u’stand wat ur tryin to say in this post..but from wat I know n have seen of u…I really respect u karma. Life has thrown u a fair share of challenges…n u’ve overcome it with strength n gr8 attitude…w/o even complaining much or cursing life(like the rest of us do @ any small oppurtunity)….n that I think is a great trait that very few ppl have.
I remem this convo I ahd with my mom after about 3 months of being employed . I said ‘ma, I thot work would be fun. Not a routine like college used to be. But I feel working is more boring a routine than college” n she said “if u look at it that way…life is a routine. There are very few ppl who do sumthing drastically different n even those ppl are not too sure if they are happy abt that deviation they take from “normal routine” life….ur life is going to be as much fun as u want it to be most of the times.so its all in the mind”
The thing is everything happens for a reason..a good one. N so u don’t want to change anything of the past tho it mite seem so tempting to do so.
I know that even now, u have many-a-hurdle to cross…n prolly all of it does get to u at times…u prolly u just never talk abt it to others or show it on ur face, but deep inside do tend to worry…
Well gurl..im sure there is some good stuff awaiting u. Just hang in n keep givin ur best! N oh ya Be urself!
Pavi...... oh looking at this whole page u've written ..i feel did I give such a grim/sad picture ..oh then that's not what i intended to mean :(, I understand that everything happens for a reason and life has been good no regrets..no complains heheee...it's just too much of monotony n the feeling of not being able to do a lot..i guess that brings this dullness n dull thoughts ... but thank you dear for ur concern:)!!
Hello ana khendo
Well that is a true way to look at what you have done and where you have been. But honestly in my case the number of years i lived out scores what i have done to use my time.. haha!! but i am hoping those years would come by where i also can manage to make use of my time more.
The important thing is that you feel good about it. So I am happy that your conclusion is a positive one. :)
snow... just wanted to say that i hope n pray that come what may, u always remain the way u r!! love you!!!
btw, we need to change that pic of ours.. i m much slimmer now ;-)
urken..yes..ur time will come soon am very sure..or we'll plan to work together and make it :)...
Mermy...it's sad to see that ur acting like a reader rather than the blogger here :(, and yeah..lets change the pic n put ur slim pic here :)
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